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Gaydar--- When does this function begin to work? Is there a help number I can call? Hi, Hello. Yes, the gaydar you gave me just won’t turn on. Yes, I read the instructions. I have my queer proof of purchase right here, Can I get a replacement? Is immersing myself in queer culture required to getting this thing up and running? After my sister graduates, she’s going to my aunt’s place in Seoul There she’ll learn the gayageum and brush up on her Corean, Maybe that’s what I need to do? Assimilate myself in all-queer surroundings Get the language down right… If there is a password, just tell me Maybe I can guess “loveLorde”? “heternomativity”? “ENDAtransexclusiontheHRCdoesntspeakforme”? Or is it that I’m so used to being stared at, So used to everyone watching my every move, That I’ve drowned all you out? Ah yes maybe I've missed step one--- direct your eyes towards the subject.

I feel hopeless when I’m supposed to be speaking on sexual consciousness but am feeling disconnected from my own body because I don’t look white, skinny, or able-bodied like the masses of queer people there

I feel like I’m misleading people and betraying my own when I talk about disability in a cross-disability intersectional framework and the only visual image people are getting is that disability=mobility because the only disabled people presenting (including myself) are wheelchair users

I feel home when I fly into North Carolina and am surrounded by bodies of all sizes, shapes and colors--- my, how one can miss this love/hate relationship with the South is surprising

Like this weekend, I sometimes feel invisible

Like this weekend, I sometimes feel like I talk about disability too much, but this is hard to balance when I feel like I am brought somewhere to only talk about disability

Like this weekend, I am unsure what the future holds or what community actually looks like for me

Here's to friends that remind me why I am in this, the spirit of community, and those disabled people and allies who through all this, made the sessions and trip worthwhile.

For the last two years, performers and activists have been organizing a show on disability, invisibility, and sexuality in San Francisco, titled Sins Invalid [link isn't work safe]. This past November, I watched the clips on youtube and pretended I was there. Must figure out a way to get there next year. : ) Here is an interview with one performer, Soledad Decosta who describes herself as "an uppity Portuguese woman who isn't afraid to claim her black latina maternal ancestry". In her interview, she describes her experience as a disabled intersex person. [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O-Odi1Y7EIU&rel=1]

"It’s not just like just let’s get it on. It’s like “…no, let’s have a discussion.” It’s not everybody that always wants to have a discussion---people want to have sex, you know--- and it’s not that simple when you’re in a position like mine and that’s true for a lot of pwds if not all all pwds, especially if you’re dealing with something that’s, you know, rendered as somehow visibly otherizing in the context of negotiating sex, having sex, and being a sexual human being. It’s not like there’s some guidebook. It’s not like you go to Barnes and Noble and there’s like a hundred books on hot crip sex with intersex person. There’s just not. It’s like I’m the book--- hello, I’m the book--- ask me, open me up.” ---Soledad (this segment starts at 2:08 part of the clip)

What stood out to me were the two lines below, largely because although Soledad is a queer disabled person, both situations could easily apply to a disabled OR queer person, particularly those with bodies that aren't considered the norm. The two communities have a lot of commonalities. (distrust for doctors or the medical industrial complex, body issues, defying labels, the list goes on and on...):

“For example, if I get into an accident, what’s going to happen to me? There are people whose bodies are similar to mine, you get in an accident and they don’t know how to categorize you. They may deny you treatment while you’re dying there on the sidewalk.”

“They---that is those doctors--- they didn’t get things quite right. Instead of praising my birth, they cut. …They held me down and did things to me that no one should have to go through without their consent.”

You can find more Sins Invalid interviews by clicking here. And it's HOT!! (oh and again not work safe). : D