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know that we have to be more gentle. more intentional. more aware. just am not sure yet how to put that into practice.

any ideas.

recap on the weekend

cripchick — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 03:57:59 +0000

know that we have to be more gentle. more intentional. more aware. just am not sure yet how to put that into practice.

any ideas.

recap on the weekend

cripchick — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 03:57:59 +0000

know that we have to be more gentle. more intentional. more aware. just am not sure yet how to put that into practice.

any ideas.

cripchick's blog » putting all my hopes in one basket

cripchick — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 03:57:59 +0000

know that we have to be more gentle. more intentional. more aware. just am not sure yet how to put that into practice.

any ideas.

recap on the weekend

cripchick — Tue, 08 Apr 2008 22:55:07 +0000

I feel hopeless when I’m supposed to be speaking on sexual consciousness but am feeling disconnected from my own body because I don’t look white, skinny, or able-bodied like the masses of queer people there

I feel like I’m misleading people and betraying my own when I talk about disability in a cross-disability intersectional framework and the only visual image people are getting is that disability=mobility because the only disabled people presenting (including myself) are wheelchair users

I feel home when I fly into North Carolina and am surrounded by bodies of all sizes, shapes and colors--- my, how one can miss this love/hate relationship with the South is surprising

Like this weekend, I sometimes feel invisible

Like this weekend, I sometimes feel like I talk about disability too much, but this is hard to balance when I feel like I am brought somewhere to only talk about disability

Like this weekend, I am unsure what the future holds or what community actually looks like for me

Here's to friends that remind me why I am in this, the spirit of community, and those disabled people and allies who through all this, made the sessions and trip worthwhile.