video: a midnight prayer
i made this video last night to use in a skype poetry reading for a youth conference in ottawa this week. i have a lot of shame around using a ventilator and having a trach.. i’ve been trying to do little things to really face that stuff within myself. (e.g. posting profile pics that have my whole body and not just a tiny piece of my face, telling friends about my access needs around my breathing early in the friendship, writing poems about the reality of my body instead of a fantasy body, etc.) coming to terms with my trach and finding beauty in my breathing feels central to learning to love my body as much as it loves me.
here’s to the beauty in our loud genius bodies.
–
skillshare: i made this using my iphone.. i recorded my voice with voicememo and used the video camera on the phone to record myself and the ventilator. i pasted the clips together, stripped the audio off the video clips, added the audio off the voicememo, turned the contrast up, and added captions with iMovie, a free program on mac computers. (i did all of this in bed, literally at midnight, by typing with one hand.)
beautiful. thank you for this.
Ofelia
2 Jun 11 at 4:20 PM
I’m glad I saw this. Beautiful for sure.
Kristin Rawls
2 Jun 11 at 5:46 PM
I really like the sound of your voice with the ventilator. Nice!
Alana Theriault
2 Jun 11 at 8:16 PM
thanks guys!! <3
cripchick
2 Jun 11 at 9:06 PM
I feel so honoured to have been able to see and experience this. Thank you. May your throat stop burning. May your beautiful soul reach many.
Margot
4 Jun 11 at 7:00 AM
really, that was a pathetic i dont know what! try and make sence next time you publish on the net, and cc me. because i wont be listening volantaraly again.
cheers, breath easy
jonathan
4 Jun 11 at 3:12 PM
Saw this via Facebook sharing. Really amazing, brave and beautiful.
Jonathan you really should try to make sence when you are being rude and insulting. Breathe easy.
Sue
5 Jun 11 at 1:47 PM
so, so beautiful.
(also such amazing use of media tools – my iphone seems…so much more filled with possibility now. thanks for sharing how you made this!)
tyrone
5 Jun 11 at 7:36 PM
dear Stacey, thank you for gifting us this beauty and magic. such powerful invocation.
Vanessa
6 Jun 11 at 11:14 AM
beautiful. just beautiful. <3
Mia Mingus
7 Jun 11 at 7:29 PM
beautiful
ryu
7 Jun 11 at 8:07 PM
wow – know that I love you for what you do to awaken the possibilities in me and others. Thank you for this!
netshirley
1 Jul 11 at 1:15 PM
Wow is not the right word for your video/poem/?
I have read some of your contributions before and have always been struck by the clarity with which you write. No bullshit…just clarity!
You’re poem tonight took great courage to share. And yet, perhaps in small part because of that, it had that much more power to communicate. It was nice to hear your voice & I’ve often wondered what your lived life is like.
Thanks for sharing a small part of your gifted life.
•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
P.S. Ignore a___ ____s like Jonathon. Why does he bother? He can’t even either look up a word in the dictionary/spellcheck/ask someone how to spell. I would use a word here, but it is offensive to women, but suits some others. Sorry if I have offended people with my honest thoughts.
Elizabeth
29 Nov 11 at 9:28 PM