A scary list

A friend and I were talking about changes and I realize how different I am from just 2-3 years ago:

-I was on my County Teen Republicans board
-I was very pro-war military (grew up on a military base)
-I was extremely hetero 
-I was in “Missionettes”, a girl scouts for fundie Christians
-I dated a guy with a Korean fetish
-I loved George and Laura Bush (sat in the front row of his second inauguration…)
-I hated being with disabled people… had one disabled friend and wouldn’t hang out with her in public
-I was the token asian girl among white people
-I was one of those pro-uniform student council types
-I wanted to be a medical model psychiatrist and “help” people

14 thoughts on “A scary list

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    Liz

    September 28, 2007 at 5:36am

    People who want to “help” people are the scariest. Congrats on your growth and welcome to the real world. :)

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    Cara

    September 28, 2007 at 10:10am

    Wow, that’s some scary shit. Congrats on breaking free of the brainwashing. Maybe it means that there’s still hope for all of the other female/LGBTQ/POC Republican supporters?

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    dread1myn

    September 29, 2007 at 8:40am

    How did you break free of those beliefs? What led to your “conversion”? I bet that’s an amazing story!

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    mic

    September 29, 2007 at 1:00pm

    do you think it’s okay to help if a person wants help? let’s talk this up soon! <3 mic

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    BetaCandy

    September 29, 2007 at 3:53pm

    I’m not willing to condemn what you were because maybe that’s the right way to live for some people.

    But it certainly sounds like it wasn’t right for you, and you’ve made great steps in finding what IS right for you, and that’s awesome. :)

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    shiva

    September 29, 2007 at 7:03pm

    Stacey – have you read “Exile & Pride: Disability, Wueerness and Liberation” by Eli Clare? If not, i couldn’t recommend it enough, it’s absolutely awesome, and i was thinking of you (as well as pretty much all the queer disabled people i know… which is actually a majority of all the disabled people i know) most of the way thru reading it…

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    shiva

    September 29, 2007 at 7:05pm

    Aaarghh buggery. That W was (obviously) meant to be a Q…

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    Jonah

    September 29, 2007 at 10:48pm

    Wow, that’s different. Were you really straight then, not just pretending?
    Have you retained any sense of Republican values? Was there anything that drew you to be politically active in a Republican way or was it just another activity?

    I will certainly either post the collage after it’s all done, or I’ll send you a copy.

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    Pinky Bear

    September 30, 2007 at 12:04am

    Wow! You really had an awakening and made some great changes!

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    daisydeadhead

    September 30, 2007 at 1:32am

    Can I ask what HAPPENED? Like, was it a series of things, or one big breakthrough? I find that kind of “conversion” fascinating!

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    MCC

    September 30, 2007 at 8:27pm

    hahaha, you guys are awesome :)

    a few friends and i presented at a conference this past weekend and…no one “got” what we were saying. i was really frusterated by the audience until a friend reminded me about posting this week last week. it definitely puts things in perspective and shows that anyone can change/grow/whatever.

    the change was gradual and instanteous at the same time.. there were a lot of “oh dang i was wrong” moments that were definitely related to developing my identity as a disabled person.

    as far as the straight-queer thing, i dunno. i really feel like i was straight but changed (until this year, there were never any hints or seeds of doubt) although others would probably argue that queerness has always been there and was latent.

    and as for the “helping” part— it’s more of how the “helpers” see themselves… if they see the “helpees” as less fortunate or in need of a savior, then there is a problem. if the person who wants to help is someone that can help the person find their own power and be an ally (not the power-giver), then i suppose that is a different thing. just a lot of the people who want to “help” the disabled/poor/houseless, etc. often do it in a patronizing demeaning way.

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    Fullof Sh@t

    October 5, 2007 at 6:30pm

    So what made you change your mind??? Did so something miraculous that made say, “Holy shit, I’ve been a mistake all my life voting for the Idiot Prez and being a republucan hypocrite!!!”?

    You know really, at least Clinton got the nerves to say, “i had oral sex with monica!!!”

    Read my blog and please tell me what you think..

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    bint alshamsa

    October 24, 2007 at 6:36am

    Don’t feel bad. Your experiences sound a lot like my entire life up until the past three years. I was raised in a religious high-control group (i.e. cult) and politically I identified myself as a conservative. I could go on but I’m pretty embarrassed to admit to anything more. ;)

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